Amrit: September 2009

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

राज्यश्री - जन्म-दिन मुबारक हो

आदरणीय भाईसाहब
सादर प्रणाम
अभी कुछ ही देर पहले ऎसे ही कुछ लिख रहा था, सोचा सोने से पहले आप लोगों के साथ भी इसे शॆयर करता चलूं, भाषा कोशिश करके सीधी-सादी ही रखना पसंद करता हूं, आज के इस युग में लोग यही पढ लें वही काफी है, नही तो भाषा की जटिलता का बहाना करके इस एहसास को अछूत कन्या का जामा पहना कर तिरस्कृत करनें में किसी का क्या जाता है ?

एह्सास

उदासी है कैसी जो छाई हुई है
यहां रूह हर एक सताई हुई है

नही जलते दीपक यहा दिल है जलते
ये बुझते हुए मन नही अब संवरते

ये किस्से किसे कोई जाकर सुनाये
किसे आज फिए ये कहानी बतायें

क्या मरने के दुनिया में कम थे बहाने
चले आज फिर से बम एटम बनाने

कहां खो गये है जहां के सयाने
कहां सो गये है अमन के दीवाने

कहीं कोई गांधी क्यों पैदा ना होता
यहां बुद्ध-नानक का सौदा है होता

हे इंसा के दुश्मन जरा होश में आ
ओ हैवानियत तू न अब जोश में आ

चलो मिल के दुनिया को जन्नत बना दें
फिर अपने दिलों में मुहब्बत बसा लें ।

अभय शर्मा 30 सितंबर /1 अक्टूबर 2009

यह एहसास आज अपनी छोटी बहन राज्यश्री के जन्मदिन पर भेंट करता हूँ ।

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Swami Vivekanad - Manoj Kumar Ojha's gift

Monday, September 21, 2009

Navya-Agastya message

Abhaya says:
September 22, 2009 at 8:41 am
The Most Respected and Highly Reverred Brother
Sadar Charan Sparsh, Good Morning and a wonderful day ahead..

I know why I am here.. just to tell you about that my mobile is in place but Savita had searched the entire house over last two holidays scratching her head.. just to find that her reading lasses were not over her head either.. She finally got them hidden under an extension board which is not working.. only after she had almost finished all her reading and writing exercises..

Bhaai aap ko yah batate huye mujhe harsh ho raha hai aaj Savita ka Birthday hai.. and she shares her birthday with my brother-in-law Dr. Vijay Kumar Dubey.. husband of my closest buddy in the family Dr. Neerja ( Neeru..).. No, brother you don’t have to wish them separartely. they are happy even if it does not come across.. tha thye both know that I share some very personal moments with you and it may not always be possible for you to reciprocate.. My wishes to both.. In fact for the first time.. I have wished Savia through email.. I had sent her the song Tumko dekha to yeh khayal aaya.. from saath-saath.. Tumpa di so you see.. I do sing for her as well.. you and FmXt are not the only exceptions.. LOL

Bhaai.. I shall take an early leave from you.. I try to be short and without sincere effort it is not going to happen.. but should I say that I would hold you and the FmXt in my thoughts for the days, months and whole of the living days that I may have been assigned by the creator of this universe..

My love to Navya-Agastya..
Abhaya Sharma September 22 2009 8:40 AM IST
PS: A song for the the two kids..
ghoda thha ghamandi
pahuncha sabzi mandi
sabzi mandi baraf padi thee
baraf mei lag gai thandi..
Tak-Bak-Tak-bak

Abhaya says:
Your comment is awaiting moderation.

September 22, 2009 at 8:54 am
Dear Navya and Agastya..

I know yu are fuming wih anger.. uncle aap baaki sab ke liye youtube links bhejate ho hamein chaar line suna ke tarka rahe ho.. yeh achchhi baat nahi hai.. hum aapki shikayat kar denge naanu se..

arre bhaai.. little lady don’t make a note of it in your diary.. I am posting a lnk for you of the song.. haan maine bahut gaay hai yeh gaana.. sab bachchon ke liye.. aur kaun sa gaana sunoge.. achchha.. baaki ke gaane baad mein.. here is the lakdi ki kaathi for both of you..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P_JVZgdEIJY

Agastya congrats for making to the school football team.. what position do you play.. Amrit stands in the goal post.. and plays casio.. wiothout being trained.. He did the music for the song competition for his blue house on pukaar song.. (anil kapoor vaali..) I am sorry I don’t know the lyrics.. boss.. probably they are expecting first place for their house…

Champions trophy mei kya lagta hai tum logon ko.. India champion ban sakati hai kyaa.. let us hope so.. their first game is against arch-rivals Pakistan.. I was told that it was a sold out game even ahead of the semis and finals.. chalo phir kal milte hain.. ab uncle ko office ke liye taiyaar hona hai..
Bye and lots fo love
Abhaya Sharma September 22 2009 8:55 AM IST

Sunday, September 20, 2009

दुर्गा-स्तुति

दुर्गा-स्तुति

हे दुर्गे अंबे जगदम्बे
जग की काली माँ
शरण तुम्हारी आया है
एक भक्त अनोखा माँ ।

ना मांगे चांदी सोना पर
प्यार तुम्हारा माँ
कल्याणी कह दो जग से
हो तुम्हीं हमारी माँ ।

आओ भवानी शिवपटरानी
शेरोंवाली माँ
जग में संकट आन पड़ॆ
हो तुम्ही सहारा माँ ।

अस्त्र-शस्त्र अपने सब लाना
हे रुद्राणी माँ
धरती पर फिर प्रलय मची
नही आकर जाना माँ ।

वैष्नो देवी दिव्य कांति की
झलक दिखाओ माँ
जग में जय-जयकार
पहाड़ा ज्योतांवाली माँ ।

अभय शर्मा 20,21 सितम्बर 2009 1.10 रात्रि

Monday, September 14, 2009

Kavi Ki Vedana - AB day 510

आदरणीय भाईसाहब
सादर चरण स्पर्श

आज मेरा अवकाश होने की स्थिति में आपको मुझे कुछ ज्यादा ही झेलन पड़ सकता है, पर यहां पिछले एक घंटे के श्रम के बाद जो कुछ भी मैने टाईप किया है उसके प्रत्युत्तर की आपसे अपेक्षा अवश्य है, इसलिये नह कि आज मेरे मन में पीत-रेखा प्राप्त करने की लालसा जाग उठी है वरन इसलिये कि यह प्रश्न मै नही कर रहा हूं - आप लोगों ने डाक्टर बच्चन को जितना कमजोर समझा वे उतने कमजोर नही थे - आपकॊ उनके सवलों के प्रति कुछ न कुछ तो अवश्य लिखना ही पड़ेगा, मेरे नाम की कॊई अवश्यकता नही है, पर हां यह भी मेरी तरफ़ से एक श्रद्धाजलि के रूप में महाकवि को स्वीकार्य हो एसी प्रभु से मेरी प्रार्थना अवश्य रहेगी । वैसे तो आप कहोगे कि मेरी चोट के समय जो कुछ भी हुआ उसका दोष तो मुझे नही दे सकते, फिर भी उनकी आत्मा की शांति के लिये दो शब्द आप इस बिषय मे अवश्य लिखें ऎसा मेरा अनुरोध है आदेश देने की क्षमता ना मै रखता हूं ना मुझे ऎसा करना प्रियकर ही लगता है –

‘दशद्वार से सोपान तक’ पृष्ठ 483-484

कवि की वेदना
तेजी के साथ अर्थ-चिन्ता से तो मुक्ति मिल गई थी, पर परिवार में सौ तरह की चिन्तायें होती हैं, समस्याएं उठती है जिन्हे दूर करने के लिए, जिनका समाधान खोजने के लिए ध्यान, समय, श्रम देना होता है । मेरा कवि स्वभाव, मेरी कवि प्रकृति, इससे कितनी उद्विग्न होगी और उससे मेरे कवि मर्म में कितना व्याघात उपस्थित होगा इसको तेजी ने जितना पहचाना उतना किसी और ने नही । अपने 42 वर्ष के संसर्ग में उन्होने मुझे गार्हस्थ जीवन के इस पक्ष से एक तरह से अछूता रखा – मैं कहना चाहूंगा दोष की सीमा तक । उनकी इस प्रव्रत्ति में कभी-कभी मुझे दुराव की आशंका हुई । अपने बेटों के सामने भी उन्होने मेरी यह तस्वीर रखी है मैं कवि हूं, कलाकार हूं, भावप्रवण हूं, थोड़ी सी अप्रिय स्थिति मुझे बहुत परेशान कर देती है – अब तो बहुत दिनों से अलसर का मरीज़ हूं – किसी भी अशुभ घटित या समाचार से मुझे अनभिज्ञ रखना चाहिये क्योंकि उससे मेरा मानसिक तनाव बढ़ेगा – एसिडिटी बढ़ेगी, मैं बीमार पड़ जाउंगा । नतीजा उसका यह हुआ है कि तेजी के जीवन में, मेरे बेटों के जीवन में बहुत कुछ कष्टकर चिन्ताजनक आया है, रहा है, और कानों-कान मुझे खबर नही दी गई । घर भर अभिनय-कला में दक्ष है, किसी ने अपने चेहरे-मोहरे से, बात से यह संकेत नही दिया कि अंदर-अंदर क्या हो रहा है, क्या बीत रह है । कभी-कभी तेजी और अपने बेटों के इस रवैये को मैने अपनी उपेक्षा समझी है, अपने प्रति अन्याय समझा है । मै परिवार का एक अंग हूं, और कोई छोटा अंग नही – मानो तो सबसे बड़ा – तो मुझे परिवार के सुख-दुख-दुरवस्था में साझीदार होना चाहिए । मुझे लगता है कि मेरे प्रति लगाव की अतिशयता में घर के लोगों ने मेरी गलत तस्वीर बना रखी है । माना कि मैं कवि हूं, कलाकार हूं, भावप्रवण हूं, पर छुई-मुई नही हूं । बहुत जगह कोमल होकर भी कहीं बहुत कठोर भी हूं – वज्रादपि कठोराणि मृदुनि कुसुमादपि, मुझमें बहुत कुछ सहने, बर्दाश्त करने, झेलने की शक्ति है, शायद घर भर में सबसे ज्यादा किसने इस घर में इतन दुख-दारिद्र्य, इतनी कष्ट-चिंताकर स्थितियां, इतनी मौत -बीमारियां देखी हैं जितनी मैंने । मेरे व्यक्तित्व के इस पक्ष को नही देखा-समझा गय तो मुझे गलत समझा गया है । इस पर सबसे ज्यादा झुंझलाहट मुझे उस समय हुई जब अमित को बंगलौर में चोट लगी, पर वह मुझसे छिपा रखी गई ।

अमिताभ को पेट में चोट शनिवार को अपराह्न में अगी थी । शायद उसे गंभीर नही समझा गय था ।

पर रात भर जिस पीड़ा, जिस कष्ट में वह तड़पता रह उससे जया को स्पष्ट हो गया था कि चोट समान्य नही है, जिसके कारण कोई बाह्य उपचार कारगर नही हो रहा है ।

इतवार को अजिताभ को फोन आ गया था कि वह फ़ौरन बंगलौर पहुंचे और साथ फैमिली डाॅक्टर शाह को लेकर। चोट की साधारणता का भ्रम तो अब नही रह गया था, अजिताभ डाॅक्टर को सथ लेकर गए, रमू, मां को बतकर । मुझे कोई भनक तक नही दी गई । मैने समझा इतवार छुट्टी का दिन है, अजिताभ योरोप से लौटकर भाई से नही मिला था, मिलने चला गया ।

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Shraddhanajali to Dr. Bachchan

मधुर भावनाओं की सुमधुर नित्य बनाता हूँ हाला,
भरता हूँ इस मधु से अपने अंतर का प्यासा प्याला,
उठा कल्पना के हाथों से स्वयं उसे पी जाता हूँ,
अपने ही में हूँ मैं साकी, पीनेवाला, मधुशाला।।५।

Here Dr. Harivansh Rai Bachchan the creator of these now very famous couplets probably had people like me in his mnd.. people who feel that to live this life is nothing more than having god thoughts because that alone can give birth to beautiful feelings.. for such people it is a daily routine to synthesise such thoughts to be promoted in the world.. that alone can satisfy his desires..To fill oneself with such original thoughts and embrace them in one’s life is the only important to such an individual..To be able to fill and fulfill oneself with such a wine is an ever compelling act in one’s life.. the wine that has been synthesised from the best ever thoughts for the world and also for oneself is an imaginary concept.. to be able to lift and fill oneself with it is no less than a dream accomplished..In such contexts the one who enjoys such a life is complete in all respect.. he is the sole representative of the saaki, the wine and the tavern.. Now I could not get a suitable word for saaki.. the barmaid does not fit too well in these beutiful thoughts of the poet.. it could be the provider.. though..

I know Dr. Bachchan would be thinking - Beta, achchhe jaa rahe ho.. kavita maine san 35 mein likhi thee tab tum paida bhi nahi huye thhe.. par apane aapko tumne iname dhoond hi liya.. mera madhushal likhana sarthak hua.. meri Kavita purn h gai.. ( Son, You are meaning well.. The verses were created by me in the year 1935 when you were not even born.. yet the way you have discovered yourself in these couplets.. My writing of Madhushala has got further substantiated.. it has achieved a sense of completion.. ( that it could represent thinking much much after its creation much after its creator has gone.. What more could I expect..)
I would share just one more verse without the translation or ascribing its relevance to me..

धर्मग्रन्थ सब जला चुकी है, जिसके अंतर की ज्वाला,
मंदिर, मसजिद, गिरिजे, सब को तोड़ चुका जो मतवाला,
पंडित, मोमिन, पादिरयों के फंदों को जो काट चुका,
कर सकती है आज उसी का स्वागत मेरी मधुशाला।।१७।

I would say that if we could understand this verse in a deeper sense than just the literal translational sense of the words we would probably be free of much malice for each other in the name of religion, temples, mosques and churches..He (Dr. Bachchan never preaches that one should not really be a believer what he probably refers is that one should not be a blind follower..)
Having said that I would not say anything I could not desist or rather resist the temptation of serving with my interpretations.. the beauty of poetry is that it can have several interpretations..

Every time I read Madhushala I enjoy it afresh becuase it does refresh..
Love and my shraddhanajali to Dr. Harivansh Rai Bachchan.. I wish I could create a few lines in his honour but I ain’t really capable .. some words that I had written with him in the mind are being reproduced here..

अपेक्षा

अपने इस जीवन-यापन में
कहीं ऎसा कुछ कर जाना है
जग याद रखे इस दुनिया में
एक ऎसा भी है इंसान हुआ
जिसे मोह जाल ना बांध सका
कर्मॊं और विचारॊं का
वह एक अनूठा संगम था
जग से मांगा ना कुछ भी कभी
देने को सब कुछ आतुर था

भाषा रंग और धर्म जाति के
बंधन कब के था काट चुका
मानव से मान को जोड़ रहा
नही शांति दूत था वह कॊई
और ना ही कोई मसीहा था
कहता था इतना ही जग से
ना पानी ने हमें जब बांटा है
ना भूख हमें है बांट सकी
ना किया हवा ने बंटवारा
फिर क्यों कर हम विद्रोह करें
हम अभय बने बस प्रेम करें
अमृत सी हमारी हॊ वाणी
कर्णों को प्रिय हम मधुर बनें

- अभय शर्मा

Post script: Read Manav se manav ko jod raha.. I have not got means to correct the missing letter in hindi font at the moment..

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Amitabh Another Imaginary Interview!!

Respected Brother
Sadar Charan Sparsh
My apologies to you for not congratulating you on winning the national award for The Last Lear.. I have not seen the film.. I have not been able to lay my hands on DVD anywhere.. if you know which company has the rights for its DVDs or if it is available or not.. There has never been an iota of doubt about your performances.. I don't really undertand how you could still mesemerise people (me includd) with your performances as an actor.. You may look older in appearance but some of the finer qualities that were your trademark like your expression with eyes and face and especially your voice they do not age at all.. that's not exactly a question it is only expression of your amaing abilities.. One can say atleast we hae one actor who has defied the logic o ageing..

Here is a mocked up interview with you: (Don't laugh it off.. I had done such an interview in three parts on my website long long back..)

Abhaya: "Sir, I had been having this long standing dream project on small screen wit you involving interviewing celebrities like Kapil Dev, Sachin, Anil Ambani, maybe even AmarSingh ji and now Jaswant Singh sahab to just name a few.. " Do we expect such interactive sessio with these of similar pople at Big Boss?"

AB : " You see, Abhaya, I am not supposed to comment anything about the program. you won't have to wait for long to find out ".
Abhaya : "Here at this blog you have completed 50o days, hw does it feel? Did you think at te beginning that you would go thus far in this arena of blogging?"
AB: "It feels great, it really feels satisfying. There had been occasions when I did not want to continue with it.. but ten the good sense prevailed and here I am with all of you the Extended Family.. To the other part of your question If I have to be honest with you.. which I generally am most of the times.. I must say that I have come a long way from where I started off.. I did not expect that it would turn out to be such a lovable exercise to be able to share the views directly with so many admirers, fans and well-wishers.. you see what I mean.. I am now hooked.. if someone asks me to quit now.. I may really find myself at a great loss.. Every day has been special.. every day I have found someone or the other coming up with that motivating tonic to continue.. to sum up it has been one hell of a good experince.. you see not hellish in the real sense of the word.. I am happy being here on the blog...

Abhaya : " I know that you are enjoying it.. why haven't you thought up of setting up a website besides the blog.. " . Any particular reason ?

AB : You see, Abhaya, there are two types of people in this world.. the first type prefer to do things their own way.. and a second type that prefer to get things done by other professionals.. I think I found the blog would be more in my own control and thought rather than depending on experts in web-designing I shold first get a feel of something that is more close to me at the personal level.. I hope you get my point..

Abhaya : " I do, you are highly explicit in whatever you do, whatever you say and also in whatever way you act in your films.. I remember some couple of guys wrote obnoxiously about your role in he Last Lear .. I don;t exactly remember their names.. some guys who were out to undo your eforts.. Do you have something to say to them..?

AB: No, I do not have anyhin further to say to them.. they whould have got their answers a couple of days back.. I say I am not against criticism.. I am not here to be taken for granted.. I am open to every day scrutiny for what I do.. as long as people like what I do I will survive.. Every good thing has to come to an end one day.. I am going to enter 68th year of my existence on 11th October.. I am not going to get any younger from there.. I can not do certain things that I did in the mid-seventies.. atleast not as well now as I could do then..

Abhaya: " You are very modest.. why do you have to ndulge in self-deprecation when things are actually very bright for you at the moment..?

AB : Abhaya, one thing I must tell you that there is nothing of that sort you chose the word from my todays blog.. otherwise you would know that a self-assessment is not a bad trait in itself.. to be able to judge yourself from the perspective of others is difficult yet I have practiced that and practiced that to good use with some good results..

Abhaya :" When exactly do you think would be the time that you would call it a day ?" Are there any secret hidden desires ambitions still in store for the viewers.. Is there that one role that you have waited that should have come to you and it has not yet come to you?

AB: The multiple questions tha you have fired.. I do have to compose myself all over again.. maybe a glass of water would help me in getting focussed.. OK..

The time when I call it quits would not be decided by me.. it would be you and the others who would decide that.. as long as I am wanted I would continue to provide my services.. the day I am not wanted I would have no option but to leave the field for others.. its is as simple as that..

Coming to your second question of secret ambition or hidden desire.. It would be wrong if I say that I have no desires or ambitions.. yet I must say that nothing is secret or hidden from anyone.. I want to be able to perform to the best of my capabilities in whatever assignments or projects that come my way.. that must be true for anyone.. anyone who chooses any profession leave alone acting..

This last part of your question is a bit tricky.. no actor on earth would admit that he has already performed whatever roles he aspired.. that admission would kill im as an actor at that very moment.. so I don't know what should I say.. maybe if you wish to know if I am looking for some specific roles.. Let me admit that I have not doen many kind of roles which I would love to perform.. I have not been associated with sports related film.. I do feel that someday if I am to do one I would not mind playing the coach of a T20 team though Football is my first love.. other than that I have not had an opportunity to act in a period film.. If someone agrees to cast me in some historically important role I would not mind doing it..for example the role of Pandit Nehru or Gurudev Rabindranath Tagore ..

Abhaya: Thank you sir, thanks for your valuable time and we also expect that there are more opportunities that come your way to be able to provide us with more super entertainment tha you have provided us for last four decades.. Ten more years and you would turn a Golden actor of Hindi Cinema.. wishing you good health for next ten years..

AB: Thanks a lot Abhaya, to you too.

Amrit